{"id":3929,"date":"2026-06-16T00:19:29","date_gmt":"2026-06-15T21:19:29","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/gazeta.am\/?p=3929"},"modified":"2026-06-16T00:19:31","modified_gmt":"2026-06-15T21:19:31","slug":"je-lai-depensee","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/gazeta.am\/?p=3929","title":{"rendered":"\u00ab Je l\u2019ai d\u00e9pens\u00e9e. \u00bb"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00c0 l\u2019autre bout du fil, le silence fut imm\u00e9diat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Un silence lourd.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Incr\u00e9dule.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Comme si mon fils essayait de comprendre ce qu\u2019il venait d\u2019entendre.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Puis sa voix revint, plus s\u00e8che.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u2014 D\u00e9pens\u00e9e ? Pour quoi ?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Je pris une inspiration.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mon c\u0153ur battait vite.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Pas parce que j\u2019avais peur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Parce que, pour la premi\u00e8re fois de ma vie, je m\u2019appr\u00eatais \u00e0 dire la v\u00e9rit\u00e9.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u2014 Pour moi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Le silence se fit \u00e0 nouveau.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Cette fois encore plus long.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u2014 Pour toi ?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u2014 Oui.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u2014 Je ne comprends pas.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Je me levai lentement et retirai enfin mon manteau de pluie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mes jambes tremblaient l\u00e9g\u00e8rement.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Pas \u00e0 cause de l\u2019\u00e2ge.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-full\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"605\" height=\"907\" src=\"https:\/\/gazeta.am\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/06\/1aadd-7.png\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-3930\" srcset=\"https:\/\/gazeta.am\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/06\/1aadd-7.png 605w, https:\/\/gazeta.am\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/06\/1aadd-7-200x300.png 200w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 605px) 100vw, 605px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00c0 cause de l\u2019\u00e9motion.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Parce que cette conversation aurait d\u00fb avoir lieu depuis des ann\u00e9es.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Peut-\u00eatre m\u00eame depuis des d\u00e9cennies.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u2014 Je me suis achet\u00e9 un manteau.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u2014 Un manteau ?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Sa voix monta d\u2019un ton.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u2014 Tu refuses d\u2019aider ton propre fils \u00e0 cause d\u2019un manteau ?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Je fermai les yeux.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Je savais que cette phrase arriverait.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Je l\u2019attendais presque.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mais ce qu\u2019il ignorait, c\u2019est que ce manteau n\u2019\u00e9tait pas seulement un manteau.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">C\u2019\u00e9tait trente ans de sacrifices.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Trente ans d\u2019oubli de soi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Trente ans \u00e0 vivre pour les autres.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator has-alpha-channel-opacity\"\/>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Apr\u00e8s avoir raccroch\u00e9, je restai longtemps assise dans le salon.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Le manteau \u00e9tait suspendu pr\u00e8s de la porte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Je le regardais.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Et soudain, les souvenirs revinrent.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Tous.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Je revis la jeune femme que j\u2019\u00e9tais \u00e0 vingt ans.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">J\u2019\u00e9tais enceinte de Mark.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Son p\u00e8re nous avait quitt\u00e9s avant sa naissance.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Je travaillais d\u00e9j\u00e0 deux emplois.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Le jour dans un bureau.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Le soir dans une sup\u00e9rette.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Je dormais quatre heures par nuit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Parfois moins.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Quand Mark avait de la fi\u00e8vre, je restais \u00e9veill\u00e9e jusqu\u2019au matin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Quand il avait besoin de v\u00eatements, je reportais l\u2019achat des miens.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Quand il voulait participer \u00e0 une sortie scolaire, je sautais plusieurs repas pour \u00e9conomiser.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Je n\u2019ai jamais regrett\u00e9 ces sacrifices.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Jamais.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Parce que je l\u2019aimais.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Plus que tout.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mais avec les ann\u00e9es, quelque chose d\u2019\u00e9trange s\u2019\u00e9tait produit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Les sacrifices \u00e9taient devenus normaux.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Attendues.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Puis consid\u00e9r\u00e9s comme acquis.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator has-alpha-channel-opacity\"\/>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Le lendemain matin, mon t\u00e9l\u00e9phone explosa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">D\u2019abord Mark.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Puis Emma.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Puis m\u00eame ma belle-s\u0153ur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Tout le monde avait un avis.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Personne ne me demandait comment j\u2019allais.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Personne ne me demandait pourquoi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ils voulaient seulement comprendre comment j\u2019avais os\u00e9 dire non.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Vers midi, Emma finit par m\u2019appeler.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Sa voix \u00e9tait froide.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Tr\u00e8s froide.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u2014 Je ne vous reconnais plus.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Je souris tristement.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u2014 Moi non plus.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Elle resta silencieuse.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u2014 Vous savez que nous avons des difficult\u00e9s.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u2014 Oui.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u2014 Alors pourquoi faire \u00e7a ?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Je regardai par la fen\u00eatre.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">La pluie tombait doucement.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u2014 Parce que j\u2019ai pass\u00e9 trente ans \u00e0 r\u00e9soudre les probl\u00e8mes des autres.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Et qu\u2019un jour, je me suis aper\u00e7ue que personne ne se souciait des miens.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator has-alpha-channel-opacity\"\/>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Les semaines pass\u00e8rent.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mark ne m\u2019appela plus.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Emma non plus.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Les messages cess\u00e8rent.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Les invitations \u00e9galement.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Comme si ma valeur avait soudain diminu\u00e9.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Comme si l\u2019amour qu\u2019ils me portaient d\u00e9pendait du montant que je pouvais transf\u00e9rer sur leur compte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Cette id\u00e9e me faisait mal.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Terriblement mal.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mais au fond de moi, je savais que quelque chose devait changer.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator has-alpha-channel-opacity\"\/>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Un dimanche, seule dans mon appartement, je sortis une vieille bo\u00eete du placard.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Une bo\u00eete remplie de photos.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Je passai des heures \u00e0 les regarder.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mark b\u00e9b\u00e9.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mark \u00e0 l\u2019\u00e9cole.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mark lors de sa remise de dipl\u00f4me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mark le jour de son mariage.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Sur chaque photo, je souriais.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Toujours.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mais une question commen\u00e7a \u00e0 me hanter.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">O\u00f9 \u00e9tais-je, moi ?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Pas physiquement.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00c9motionnellement.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Quand avais-je cess\u00e9 d\u2019exister comme femme pour devenir uniquement une m\u00e8re ?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Quand avais-je arr\u00eat\u00e9 de r\u00eaver ?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Quand avais-je d\u00e9cid\u00e9 que mes besoins passaient toujours apr\u00e8s ceux des autres ?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Je n\u2019avais pas la r\u00e9ponse.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mais pour la premi\u00e8re fois, je me posais la question.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator has-alpha-channel-opacity\"\/>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Deux mois plus tard, quelque chose arriva.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Quelque chose que personne n\u2019avait pr\u00e9vu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Je tombai malade.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Pas gravement.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mais suffisamment pour \u00eatre hospitalis\u00e9e quelques jours.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Une infection.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">De la fi\u00e8vre.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">De l\u2019\u00e9puisement.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">La premi\u00e8re nuit \u00e0 l\u2019h\u00f4pital fut difficile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Je regardais la porte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">J\u2019attendais.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Un appel.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Un message.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Une visite.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Quelque chose.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mais rien ne vint.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Rien.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Pas m\u00eame un simple \u00ab Comment vas-tu ? \u00bb<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ce silence me fit plus mal que la maladie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator has-alpha-channel-opacity\"\/>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Le troisi\u00e8me jour, alors que je lisais distraitement un magazine, quelqu\u2019un frappa \u00e0 la porte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Je levai les yeux.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Et mon c\u0153ur manqua un battement.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">C\u2019\u00e9tait Mark.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Il semblait fatigu\u00e9.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Vieilli.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Plus que dans mon souvenir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Pendant quelques secondes, aucun de nous ne parla.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Puis il entra.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Et s\u2019assit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u2014 Pourquoi ne m\u2019as-tu rien dit ?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Je haussai les \u00e9paules.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u2014 Tu ne me parlais plus.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Il baissa les yeux.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Je vis la honte sur son visage.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Et pour la premi\u00e8re fois depuis longtemps, je compris qu\u2019il souffrait lui aussi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator has-alpha-channel-opacity\"\/>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Il resta silencieux un long moment.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Puis il murmura :<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u2014 Quand j\u2019\u00e9tais petit&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Sa voix trembla.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u2014 Je pensais que les m\u00e8res \u00e9taient invincibles.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Je ne r\u00e9pondis rien.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u2014 Je pensais que tu serais toujours l\u00e0.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Toujours capable de r\u00e9gler les probl\u00e8mes.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Toujours capable d\u2019aider.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Toujours capable de donner.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Une larme roula sur sa joue.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u2014 Je n\u2019ai jamais pens\u00e9 \u00e0 ce que \u00e7a te co\u00fbtait.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mon souffle se coupa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Parce que c\u2019\u00e9tait exactement ce que j\u2019avais attendu pendant des ann\u00e9es.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Pas de l\u2019argent.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Pas des cadeaux.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Pas des excuses parfaites.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Simplement cette compr\u00e9hension.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator has-alpha-channel-opacity\"\/>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Quelques jours plus tard, je quittai l\u2019h\u00f4pital.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mark vint me chercher.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Nous roulions en silence.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Puis il regarda soudain le manteau pos\u00e9 sur le si\u00e8ge arri\u00e8re.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Le fameux manteau.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Celui qui avait d\u00e9clench\u00e9 toute cette temp\u00eate.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Il sourit l\u00e9g\u00e8rement.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u2014 Alors c\u2019est lui.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Je ris.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u2014 Oui.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u2014 Il est joli.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u2014 Merci.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Il resta silencieux quelques secondes.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Puis ajouta :<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u2014 Tu sais&#8230; je crois que ce manteau ne t\u2019a pas co\u00fbt\u00e9 cent mille.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Je tournai la t\u00eate vers lui.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u2014 Ah bon ?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u2014 Non.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Je crois qu\u2019il a co\u00fbt\u00e9 trente ans.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Les larmes me mont\u00e8rent aux yeux.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Parce qu\u2019il avait enfin compris.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Enfin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator has-alpha-channel-opacity\"\/>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Quelques mois plus tard, notre relation avait chang\u00e9.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Pas parfaite.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mais plus saine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Lorsque Mark avait besoin d\u2019aide, il demandait.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Il n\u2019exigeait plus.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Et lorsque je refusais parfois, il l\u2019acceptait.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Sans col\u00e8re.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Sans reproches.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Comme un adulte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Comme un fils qui avait enfin compris que sa m\u00e8re \u00e9tait un \u00eatre humain.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Pas une banque.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Pas une solution automatique.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Pas une machine \u00e0 sacrifices.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Une femme.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Avec ses r\u00eaves.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ses blessures.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ses envies.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Et sa propre 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